Sandalwood remained in the air for days after she was last in his arms, only serving to make it even harder for him to think about anything else. He was doing his best to distract himself from his thoughts of her, but was failing miserably. Despite his miserable failure at self-distraction, he was far from miserable.
He was ecstatic to be missing someone so greatly. He knew she would return to him. The emptiness he felt in his arms was just a side effect of the anticipation and excitement he felt for the next time they were together. And the time after. And the time after that. He started to look at the things he knew were upcoming, and to imagine her there by his side.
Their chemistry was incredible, but there was so much more than that. She was a friend. She understood him, and he understood her. They matched each other or complimented each other in every matter of importance they had so far come across. They had their own unique take on things that didn’t conflict with the perspectives they individually held so dear.
So yeah, I can’t wait to see her again.
Anyway, my appointment yesterday sucked. I basically paid $40 for another referral. Good thing I got referred to him, and not the people he referred me to. So ridiculous. My records were already there. He already knew he wanted to refer me to other doctors (a good idea), but why not call me and cancel the appointment first, and set up the referral? So he could bill my insurance, and get my co-pay, that’s why.
I have a terrible stomach ache. It is better than yesterday and the night before, but it still hurts. I’m sure whoever I end up talking to about it will refer me to another specialist who might refer me to a different specialist who will do nothing. I’m so motherfucking sick of the healthcare system in this country, and Trump hasn’t even gotten his grubby, tiny hands on it yet.
On a related note, I wanted to say goodbye to all of you, since the likelihood of all life on Earth ending increases exponentially starting tomorrow. I will likely say goodbye on all my posts, just in case.
I’m about to reschedule my therapy appointment. I had to cancel due to the last time the roads were too icy, and delayed reschedule until after the ice storm that never came. The extended forecast looks good, so I think I will try again. I could really stand to get some things off my chest, like this shirt, because it is party time!
I got laundry done today, so that was nice. I wasn’t supposed to be in town today, but something happened that required postponement of the plans I had made. It is a good thing, not what happened, but that my plans were postponed, since I am feeling kinda cruddy and needed the rest.
Then I penned this letter to my family…
We have just returned from a trip into a few blocks away in Missouri where we got big amounts of everything to eat and everything we eat is so good to me as I had been starved out so long on protein powder, all that we got while we were here besieging Independence. Over there we got sweet potato fries, chickens, molasses, and Peach Nehi. How I do wish I could be at home now, for it is getting late in the afternoon and the General says that we shall attack at Dawn. This makes me sad, as Dawn always seemed rather nice, and is a good dish soap. The enemy still holds their positions in Independence, and we have now returned from our trip and taken the high ground above them near a car lot. You must excuse this letter as I have written in great haste. The General wants me to wear my assless chaps to her tent again, and be there in 5 minutes. My love to you and all, except for Amy, because she’s a bitch. Write when you can, and make it a long letter, because I’m anxious to hear from you. Oh, and send money.
Ellis Albert Swearengen (Just kidding, C-NT!)
Anyway, yeah, today is a nice rest day. I hope you are all well. I miss you. Say hi to Margaret and the kids. Tell them that their father asked me to look after them because he didn’t make it back from Independence, but I declined, because they are rotten bastards!