Some women dress up to show it. Some women have it in them. She was that power. It came through whether she was in a flowery dress, jeans and a sweatshirt, or her fetish gear. She didn’t need to go all out for it to come through, but she could do that too.
He didn’t know his own power. All of the years of torment and pain had taken its toll on him. Sure, he survived it all, but he chalked that up to luck instead of something inside of him. He didn’t think he was on her level. He only knew that he wanted her for his own. To be a part of her power.
He knew where hers came from. She couldn’t even take a picture without it coming through. No matter how bright her smile or how innocent her pose, her eyes betrayed the darkness she had absorbed. She was powerful because nothing had ever been handed to her. She had to learn to fight for everything she ever got in her life. He knew that about her, but failed to see how that paralleled his own experience.
She saw it though.
So when they saw each other at the train station that day, there was an intense attraction and recognition unlike anything he had ever felt before. He knew her from earlier in life. They grew up together. Both of them were always dating someone else, and so they had kept a distance between them. He felt so strongly for her whenever she was around, but he was always in a relationship or she was, and he was not about to dishonor that. He didn’t know she was feeling the same.
She had moved to London and he stayed back home in Manchester. They kept in touch via Facebook and he would stalk her pictures on her profile from time to time. They would wish each other happy birthday or congratulate each other on major events in each other’s lives, but he did not reveal how much he desired to be with her.
She desired him, but felt that he was happy and that she would just complicate his life. She knew she could have anything she wanted, including him, but thought that he was happy with the life he had built in Manchester. She watched from afar as he picked up the pieces after everything he had endured and created a seemingly happy existence. She wouldn’t have wanted to take that from him, and so she kept her desire a secret.
So when he saw at her at Euston railway station as he was heading into London for a Chelsea game, he did not know what to do. Fortunately for him, he did not have to make any choices because as soon as she saw him she ran to him and leaped into his arms. It was all he could do to not proclaim his undying love for her right then and there as she wrapped her arms and legs around him.
They both laughed a little as he set her back down onto her feet on the platform.
“What are you doing here?” she asked excitedly.
He grabbed the Chelsea scarf around his neck and picked up a corner to bring it in front of her eyes. “Gee, I don’t know, why would I be in London with all this Chelsea gear?” he teased.
“Maybe because you are a traitor and have forsaken two different major teams from your hometown for Chelsea,” she fired back with a smile.
“I’m also kind of checking it out. I’m considering taking a job with Chamberlin, Powell, and Bon,” he added, nonchalantly.
“You got an offer? They are only one of the biggest architecture firms in London!” she said, excitedly.
“Yeah,” he replied, embarrassed.
“Congratulations! I always knew you could do anything you wanted!”
They stood there talking and getting caught up. Neither one of them was seeing anyone. They had both been single for a few months. They talked about all of the things they had been through and all of the things that had gone on since they last saw each other. He didn’t even realize how much time had passed and that he had completely missed the kickoff. When he talked about his last breakup he was surprised when she mentioned that she knew, that she had seen the pain he was going through, and wanted to reach out but didn’t want to feel like she was pushing her own agenda.
“What agenda?” he asked her.
She looked him deep in the eyes, and he felt himself sink into her gaze as though he was being hypnotized when she told him, “I have wanted you from the first time I ever saw you.”
He didn’t know if he should be shocked, excited, or intimated. He was all three. But he wanted her for years. He was quietly obsessed, and here she was telling him that she wanted him. And he knew that she always got what she wanted. He allowed the happiness to take over, and pushed the feelings of intimidation to the side. He leaned in and kissed her.
He didn’t know how long they had been kissing for when he opened his eyes as they stopped and he became aware of the fading light. It suddenly set in that he had not only missed the match, but probably needed to get on the train for the two-hour ride back to Manchester.
She became aware of the time too, and told him, “I’m sorry you missed your little game. Go home and get things ready so you can hurry back to me. Yeah?”
They kissed again and then he said goodbye to her. He got aboard the train and thought about how monumental the day he just experienced had been. As the train pulled away, he closed his eyes to better relive what had just happened.
When the train slammed into the other train, he didn’t know what happened. The impact jarred him out of his daydreams as the cars in front of him either burst into flame or were thrown from the track. The only thought he had time for before he lost consciousness was, “No, you are not taking this from me.”
She saw the impact from her car. As the collision occurred, she thought to herself that she would not allow him to be taken from her.
He opened his eyes in the hospital to her face, feeling the power between them that saved his life.