Hello dear reader(s)!
After much editing and rewriting and editing and rewriting and more editing, I finally determined that my post to be a guest post sucked. But I was assured by the blog’s host that it did not. So after making just a couple more changes, I scheduled my post for Tuesday morning! Very exciting stuff.
Only that’s not exactly what happened.
What happened, is that I scheduled the post for LAST Tuesday morning and it published immediately. On someone else’s blog. My first guest post.
Luckily enough, I rescheduled the post for the correct day when I saw that it said that it had been published, and then checked the Reader to ensure it had in-fact, disappeared, I am confident now that it will not post before the agreed upon date and time, but I am very not confident about the content.
This just caps off the week that I’ve been having. Basically, I’ve done 4 things since my doctor’s appointment on Wednesday. They are…
- Attempt to write something of quality for once in my life, then rewrite, and edit, and rewrite it again.
- Worry about my health, and the quality of said post.
- Cat-sit for my dad and step-mother.
That’s it, that has been my exciting and amazing week. Basically, I am sucking at life the way a Dyson sucks up dirt. (Where is my check, Dyson?)
I think I may be entering into some sort of depression, except that I still would enjoy doing the things that I enjoy doing, if I had any energy to do them, or wasn’t worried about everything else.
Then today, I post a post saying that I will be away from the blogosphere for a while when I was actually finishing up the guest post today (by finishing up I mean, saying, “Fuck it, I don’t think I’m going to ever be happy enough with it, so I might as well go with this.”) and should have posted that post about guest posting two or three days ago when I was working more feverishly on it. Luckily, I do not have a fever from the feverish working.
Essentially, my appointment has thrown me off. Despite the fact that the numbers can probably be explained by normal things, they were off more than I was expecting and the follow-up has me freaked out. I don’t want to do anything until I am assured that I am healthy, which is not a healthy thing to do. I have decided to have a pity party all week long, you can come, but bring some pie or something.
Anyway, now I have a nifty little badge congratulating me that I have written my first post on the blog for which I am guest posting. So I guess that will pull me out of this little funk that I’m in!
I just want to go back to bed.